gosh... FIREWORKS!!!!!!!!!! haha lolx... for the past four nights at Yishun... though short but beautiful... sometimes i hope that there are lots of "fireworks" in my life... so that it'll be more sparkling, more exciting, more colourful....... but my life's just simple... haha lolx.. well my aunt is getting worse... every night she will try to put my cousin to sleep & after she sleeps, she'll sneak out of the house & comes back extremely late... but i knew her "plan" won't really work every night.. my cousin will sure to wake up one day & finds out that she's missing... & last night, my cousin really woke up.. though she's only still so young, she's really afraid that her only parent left in the world will desert her.. she always stick with her mum.. it's so touching when you see her always in tears when she don't see her mum even if she's just in the bathroom.. sigh... everytime, my mum will have to lie to her about her mum's whereabouts... & if it's only once a week or month, it's still alright... but this is her daughter... why must she everytime leave the responsibility to others... last night she was scolded by my mum when she wants to go out after putting her daughter to sleep as usual.. then her daughter woke up.. crying... refuse to sleep until her mum comes back... refuse to stay in her own room.. went to my mum's room... ask every now & then where's her mum... why did she go out for... very sleepy but still refuse to sleep... sometime will doze off at my mum's bed.. then at around one plus, my mum decided to go down to look for her mum... my cousin cried & told my mum if she leaves, who'll take care of her... i can see that she's very afraid... very scared that people will desert her.. my mum has no choice but to bring her along down too... but with no avail.. they couldn't find her at the place she said she'll be... at around 2 plus, she came back.. my mum reprimanded her... she went to sing karaoke instead... what the f**!!!!!! let my mum wait till so late!!!!!! & she's not sorry at all... actually when they first came, i didn't care so much about them.. i don't really know they had all those "bad habits" which are so unbearable.. even after my sis starts to complain, i just don't feel anything.. i don't think they are so nuisance.. i'm just living in my own world.. i don't care about them.. until my mum starts to complain about them to me, then i started to notice, start to dislike them... sometimes i wonder... if my mum haven't complain to me at that time, will it be better? my life will not be so miserable now.. i won't always don't feel like coming home.. but i knew i shouldn't be so selfish.. let my mum bear this alone.. i feel so heartbroken seeing my mum so tired... if someone can tell me what i can do to help, i'll be damn grateful.. though my aunt & cousin should be sympatised, i think that my mum has no responsibility to do all this shit for them.. we lend them a helping hand but got ourselevs into this kind of shit... it's really bullshit!!!!!!