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Today's the last day in 2004... this year is another unforgettable year... currently i'm at home listening to the annual top 100 countdown from perfect10... later at night going to 'jia dou' with my family.. finally got all the photos from ah bo... thanks ah bo for taking the time to send 1 by 1 to me.. didn't go to sch today cos it's eve and it's half day... yesterday during internet lesson was really funny... BJP were down there laughing at the bah gay incident.. lolx.. haha.. then after sch ah bo and I acc JQK to amk central to cut their hair.. met jack's girl.. we didn't talk at first till at ramen i intro myself to her.. lolx.. kenny was laughing... is it funny? lolx... just trying to make friends... JQK's new hairstlye... jack's one like 'xi ling men's long ge hairstlye... Qiang's one was very short... kenny's one not much diff... but i think overall was not bad... sunday my turn to cut le.. haha.. still haven't decide what hairstyle to cut..

Looking back this year...
^experience working in Motorola(miss my days there)
^first time chasing idols(5566)
^Joined YA & went back to YTSS as UH(alot of courage done)
^Got my O level results(not satisfied)
^didn't have enough courage to choose the course i like in TP(Hospitality Management)
^mum hospitalized(sad)
^went for second operation to take out metal pieces(pain)
^Got into NYP-FD Financial Service(haiz...)
^great orientation (woohoo)
^sentosa gatherings with FD & chongfu friends(memorable)
^Got to know a bunch of wonderful classmates(FD)
^Manage to give up 'M' & found a new love(blush)
^Sad about Nicole Highway collapse(sob)
^manage to pass my year one semester one(YEAH!!)
^had a wonderful sentosa trip(i'm loving it)
^complications with parents' and sis's illness(haiz)
^had a wonderful class chalet(love it)
^had a memorable bday & also very touched(happy)
^tough guides camps(tiring)
^experience working in Meritus Mandarin(tough)
^formed BJP & 'black friday'(lolx)
^change of prime minister(thanks Mr Goh & welcome Mr Lee)
^started my year one semester two(sianz)
^Taufik won SG Idol(other finalists like Oli,Sly,Jes,Dap,David are cool too)
^wore skirt to sch with Ah bo(weird)
^becoming more & more femine(haha)
^Sad about killer waves(sad)
^had a great Xmas party at Angel's house(cool)
^experience numerous tensions in my family(extremely sad)

well i think now the world news is about the earthquake and tidal waves happening around asia... i am quite upset about this news knowing that about 23,000 people died... and the death toll is still increasing.. Lots of people still missing...lots of people lost their family members and homes.. i think singapore is quite fortunate that the tidal waves didn't come our way as if it really did, the whole country will be swept away by the strong waves and current.. i really hope that this kind of disasters won't happen again... hope that there's world peace... god please spare us from all these sufferings... haiz...

i feel so unwell today.... reach sch at 11am... i scan my card and sat outside... cos really very unwell.. then about 11.20am then go in... sat right in front... then during break went outside and sit alone at the stairs again... cos still not feeling well then the guys and SHE came out also.. da ge ask me why i feel so down... haiz... then my spirits are better cos our group all so funny...haha... we kept jack's cigerratte... cos don't want him to smoke ma.. lolx.. then never give him back... BJP passed around his box and took turns to kept it.. he search our bags also no use.. he na wo men mei ban fa.. lolx.. saw the thing i don't wanna see again.. but think i'll get used to it soon.. after lunch went to library do project with mad.. then late for accounts tutorial... a whole group of us.. the teacher say wanna mark us absent and say see if we wanna stay for the lesson or not... we all stayed on.. then in the end she gave us chance.. so strict.. haiz.. then finally gave jack back his box... lolx.. after sch.. he kept on playing the tapping ppl's back game lolx.. then i lately not very happy.. lolx... then play with him also lor.. hit him real hard with my books.. lolx... a few times... haha.. then he say i very violent don't wanna play with me le.. haha.. come to think of it he's quite an innocent and naive person cos he like abit also can be happy le.. what a happy go lucky guy... though he likes to play.. but he quite suay cos everytime i tap on someone else and walked away, he everytime very suay stand beside that person i tap on.. since he started this game, no matter what he say, the person won't believe that it wasn't him.. so i'll be lol all the way.. haha.. well my mood's better now... but my sis's not home yet again.. still in town... same old problem.. mum worried.. but luckily dad not in... he called to spot check but my mum lied to him.. luckily when i come home just now he's not in le.. haiz.. ok la.. have to study for stats test le..

today is a very bad day for me... i saw something i don't wish to see... i heard things which i don't wish to hear... but i'm still quite confused because i don't know should i be happy about the things that i don't want to hear and see.. though i'm upset, yet happy... i know it's difficult for me to run away from it.. and i think in the future i will hear more of this and see more of this.. so i think i'll just have to get used to it.. during the break came back home for lunch and went to attend guides COH.. i didn't comment much cos i'm listening and observing the future leaders.. after that came back home again and prepare to go to lecture.. walked halfway and realised that i forgot to bring my purse... went back to take and went to the bus stop... damn it.. miss my bus.. went to take mrt.. missed my train... somemore saw my g-t-i-c... late for lecture.. then when walk back home nearly fell and raining somemore..haiz.. what a day.. yesterday went out with sm & kb to town.. actually don't want to go cos lately not enthu to anything.. then went i reach home, sis not back again.. haiz.. mum was worried.. dad ap again.. this is the situation i hate to be in everytime.. it's always bcos of my sis... my dad will put pressure on my mum and on me... my mum will also put pressure on me.. but not as tough as my dad.. i'll always pretend that i don't know anything.. sometimes have to anyhow 'fu yan' my parents.. then my sis finally come back, she'll give attitude to everyone including me.. i'll always still play around and be like those joker or lamer.. even though i'm hurt inside when i get her scoldings or 'len yan len yu'... i feel hurt bcos i really love my sis.. yesterday night i finally couldn't take it and cried out.. nobody saw it of cos.. i'm quite good at hiding my emotions... it's really tiring to pretend to be happy when i'm not..to smile when i feel like crying.. but it's like in myself already.. i'm so used to it.. it's been such a long time ever since i showed my real emotions to someone else.. i'm afraid... afraid that one day i'll lose my sister.. but i got the feeling that i will.. someday... i understand...

woohoo... it's Xmas eve..2 more hours later it'll be Xmas!!!!! this morning woke up quite late at around 11am just in time to watch the repeat telecast of 'My MVP Valentime'.. but wacth for awhile my sis ask me go down & have lunch together.. actually huijun & chaiching ask me to go town with them but i told them i'm lazy.. then after lunch, my sis ask my acc her go queensway... haiz.. no choice... haha.. lolx.. but i think that queensway too far so i ask her wanna go town or not.. in the end we went to town & meet my 2 friends.. we wore the same top and bottom.. lolx.. abit weird.. haha but nvm.. took neos again with my sis at heeren.. my friends don't wanna take.. then went to see a hip hop dance competition at far east.. all the dancers are damn good.. then after that took train back.. me & my sis were seated at the corner.. then we were listening to music.. then i was very engrossed looking at my photos.. the train was damn crowded.. then suddenly i heard a guy said very loudly 'can you please let the lady over there sit down thank you'.. i looked up & search for the guy & the lady he mentioned but couldn't find any.. then my sis stood up so i just followed her.. it was then that i saw the lady with her baby.. so embarrassed.. first time kana said by someone in the public.. haiz.. but i think we are partly at fault not to notice the lady.. then we reach Yishun met my parents & went for dinner.. then me, my sis & my mum went to watch 'Kungfu Hustle'.. funny show but some parts real disgusting.. .gosh... i was like closing my eyes & covering my ears quite a number of eyes... i know i'm timid.. haiz.. lolx.. that's all for Xmas eve.. Merry Xmas everyone!!!!!!!

Woohoo... just came back from FD's christmas party at Angel's house & had a great shower...today meet boon, jo, grace & sandy at woodlands mrt station & took bus to angel's house.. reach her house & very impressed with her deco of the house.. then slack there & walked around in the house aimlessly as the others were playing monopoly.. then had dinner... the food they prepare are simply delicious.. lolx.. but i didn't eat as much as not very hungry.. then BJP & my 4 guifeis went downstairs to the playground & played.. after that went back to angel's house & played da ge & da shao's game.. very suay.. lolx.. keep on lose & drank alot of water as forfeet.. i think about 3 cups of water.. bcos just finish dinner so very full.. then played box in a box.. lolx..

1st: slow dance-> Da ge & sok ying(very shy then kept on lolx)
2nd: Heinkin ad--> Qiang di & me(too short.. cannot see the card even on the chair then no choice climb the cupboard & hit my head real hard onto the ceiling but in the end manage to get it)
3rd: pegs--> Jackson & Da ge(jack very poor thing cos da ge clip on his face & pull very hard.. lolx.. pain..)
4th: Extreme gourmet--> Joseph(very disgusting mixture therefore jo drink one sip & threw the rest)
5: use butt to write 'I am stupid"--> me(look stupid)
6: Eat dog biscuit--> Mad(lolx.. it's edible)
7: turn rounds & walk straight--> Desmond(Des was extremely dizzy.. lolx..)
8: put ice under armpit for 2 mins--> Sandy (poor sandy..cos it was cold)
9: kiss toilet bowl--> Angelia(great experience)
10: act--> Kenny[husband],ling[wife],Da shao[mistress] (very short but exciting)
11: eat chilli padi--> Shevon & Da ge(poor dage..everytime kana..lolx..haha)
12: Wacko--> Angel(almost everybody hit very soft)

this should be the order if i'm not wrong.. i think i'm always very suay cos i will definitely kana at least once for the dares all this.. lolx..haiz... then after game everyone were extremely tired and warm.. haha.. then we Xchange gifts.. i got sok ying's one(a cat wraist rester).. then kenny got mine.. hope to get mine.. haha.. cos i love it.. but no choice.. then i started the bday song for grace.. then take pics & cut logcake... then sandy went off first.. I acc her downstaris.. then they were trying to finish the food.. then ling & sokying went off.. actually want to ton but mum don't allow.. haiz.. then 11pm like that went off with jo,lia,sharon & grace.. took cab with them.. actually want to send sharon home but we reach yishun first.. then after jo got off at khatib, we all got off at Yishun mrt.. then i acc sharon to wait for train.. actually want to acc her back to sembawang but she insist not cos that was the last train le.. then reach home & receive Xmas card from alot of friends.. what a great day.. just found out that i really falling very deep into 'this'... think it's very hard for me to come out.. but i don't mind to just secretly do 'this'.. Merry Xmas my classmates & all those who joined us.. thanks for giving me a wondeful Xmas party.. Happy bday grace & Hetti..

another day have past... lolx.. sianz... today's skating is canceled because not many people can make it.. so me slacking at home now with my sis.. haha.. resting my eyes and hope that it will be ok by tomorrow if not i don't think i can go to the party.. haha.. quite pissed off with YA nowadays.. because they everytime never inform me about any YA activities.. haiz.. just finished helping my cousin with her blogskin but still cannot see her blog entries.. but she say never mind.. hope that tomorrow's games will be successful.. hope that my eyes will recover by tomorrow morning..

haiz... my eyes are swollen again... very painful.. today me and my sis accompany my mum to SGH to checkup... then saw meow ying.. so chiao.. then after that went to town with my mum and sis.. go shop around for chinese new year clothes(I know it's still very early)... I was shocked when they say today they are shopping for new year's clothes.. lolx.. cos it's like so early.. then i bought alot of tops.. 3 tops.. all femaine ones... lolx.. is it a good or bad news? lolx.. i only bought a bottom from S & K(finally).. a pair of blue jeans.. long ones.. not 3/4.. my sis and mum also bought alot of things.. haha.. what a fruitful day... did i use the correct word? haha.. well i'm going to buy skirts for bottom to match my tops.. haha.. oh yes tomorrow don't know still going skating or not cos nobody inform.. haha.. if not going then i'll just slack at home.. finally got to know the song.. my blog title.. but still cannot find that song.. oh yes today bought the same 'star' key chain with my sis.. hers was white and mine blue.. YEAH!!!!! haha.. can't remember what happen yesterday le.. lolx.. nvm..