my aunt is moving out... i know that this is a good news for my family but i'm still unhappy... she came & our lives change drastically... i changed alot.... & i hate myself even more than before... i dislike who i am now... all becuase of them... but i think nothing could help to change everything that has happened even though she's moving out... we felt sorry for them & let ehm moved in but it became one of our worst nightmares... i was never happy before ever since they moved in... life for me & my family were never the same anymore.. i always thought that i would be easy for us all to adapt to them but i am wrong... though they never help in anything but i never bother until i found out that their presence had brought trouble for my mum... she's sick but she still needs to deal with so much 'trouble' that my aunt & cousin have done... but i know that she's not trying to harm us but little did she know that everything she does is leading to our unhappiness... i think she realise that now therefore she's moving out... but what's the use moving out now when what is done is over... & now i also realise that people who i thought were nice people have change tremendously... all because of all those positions... does it really matter? just because your friends got it but you don't... you have to 'fight' with your friends? what is happening? i don't know... all becuase of fame, power.... friends can become foes... & i found out that what i am worrying in the past is happening now... sometimes it's not that we want to let things happen but we really cannot control fate... friends are drifting apart... not that we don't want to stay together... topics are really different & most of what we can talk about is all about the past... i really hope to sleep forever sometimes... be in a dream that has happy endings within my control... stupid right? but i know no matter what happens to me & my friends... even if we really have nothing to say to each other, i will never forget the days we have together... those days are memorable... very memorable.. though happy times are so little... but it's really a great experience of life... i really miss you guys...